All
this time, I thought I was over him, but the truth is that I was never
over him. I still have feelings for him, even just he slightest counts right?
No matter what he does, or how much I despise him, I just cannot stop loving
him. He’s already my ex, I was the one who gave the decision of breaking up
with him, and now I am the one regretting this? A little ironic, I know. Why
can’t I stop thinking about him? I don’t know, it haunts me in the middle of
the night at times. The way he smiles, that face, that innocent but gentle
face. Sometimes I miss it, sometimes I wish I still had him. If I had those
kind of feelings then why am I here at this step, with someone else in my arm
you ask? I have no clue either. In the beginning, I just couldn’t take him on
my shoulder anymore. He doesn’t know how I felt, he doesn’t understand me, and
moreover, he doesn’t know I cry in the middle of the nights at times because of
our fragile relationship. There I said it. Sometimes on the other side of the
phone when I was talking to my ex, things would be weird, it would grow quite,
afterall we don’t have much to talk about. Getting together right after being a
set of strangers, of course there is nothing you can talk about. But then of
course, its my fault as well, because I would never tell him how I feel. In
fact, I would never tell him anthing about him. Its pretty silly to say it now
but then its better than not saying it at all at times. Sometimes I would close
my eyes and wish everything was a fairytale. Another reason to why I broke up was
because of the fact that I couldn’t express anything with him. I guess if I gave
“us” time, we probably would pull through. I mean relationship is all about
time, and patience, because only “time will tell” as they say. And that is what
kinda happened to me and present, and resulting in me here, in less of a
depress relationship. Why didn’t I give my past a chance? Why did I move on so
fast? It is because of the way he makes my heart race? Is it because of the way
he smiles? The way he loves me like no one else? I really don’t know. He is a
guy full of flaws, yet I loved him so much. He chased me for what? Five years? Seven
years? At times even though he tells me he have already got over me, I would
wonder about that. Isn’t something missing? Isnt someone missing me? Even though I am the sacrifice,
you wont try for me not now. Now im dying to know if you love me, now I am all
alone. Isn’t something missing? Isn’t someone missing me? This song truly describes
my feelings right now. I can’t bare to see another one of his pictures. Each
time I see one picture, an image just pop up of him, the thought of him. The slightest
hint reminds me of him, I hate it, I truly hate it. What am I suppose to do
now?
Friday, March 7, 2014
Saturday, March 1, 2014
The shit I went through this hierarchy
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I go to this school where the leaderships are messed up, the hard workers usually become the sloppy workers, and the people who deserves to earn the most are not the ones who actually do. I am in many committees in a club, and I have experiences in many different ways others don't, yet I am not the one who is selected for the leadership. Which in my opinion is pretty sad. To be honest, I hate the people on top, because to get on their good side, you need to kiss up to their asses, and do whatever they want you to do, no questions asked.
Last semester, I applied to be the leader of this one committee, and yes, I lost to someone who isn't even that highly participated in the committee. Only reason she was selected was because she was part of the main board member or the main cord of the club, and the voters were the board members. So of course, out of me, this other girl, and her, it would be her. And to make situations worst, during my interview, no one came besides the ex-leader, and the one who does the least in the board. Which makes the whole interview unfair, because no one seems to know anything during my interview.
I mean, yes I guess I somehow got over that a while later, a long while later. That is when I decided to aim for my second leadership skills interview. Which was the managers underneath the leader of the committee, they pretty much do most of the work for the leader, which leaves the leader doing nothing but still getting all the credits. Anyways, I applied to two positions, and I guess there was another one for me to fall back on in addition, so that makes it three, but sadly, I didn't get into any. The only reason I was liable I guess was because I was late to two of the meet up with the leader, well not late, but one I texted her saying I will be five minute late, and the other one was I cancelled one of the morning shift with the leader, and she was like, that is not a good enough excuse to do it but she will let be slide, but shes disappointed in me and stuff. I mean Shit. I have 20 units in my hand, why can't you just allow me to have a little moment. Others don't even work as hard as I do, heck some talks, uses their phone and shit.
Two days ago the third incident happened in which I was the only one in my shift that appeared, apparently the other girls signed in, went to the galloway, and cleaned up the booth and just sat by the stair cases for a whole two hours while I was sitting in the cold working my ass off. Shit, are they fucking dumb as hell or what is their problem? Freaking ass idiots. According to them, they asked May if they can clean up the booth, and she said yes, but after that go help out with the PCC Quad. And those two girls just took it as "leave and then come back later and help the PCC Quad". Like fuck, their Asians too, why can't they get it right. It's been the same for two month shifts now, and that one day they just think that it works like that? Holy fuck. I ended up cleaning up most of the things early because the campus police was just right there and if i clean up later on I was worried I won't be able to take it down. Then after we took the things up thats when the two girls reapperared again. Like holy crap. Yeah just come in later and take credit of the work. So I left an half an hour early because I got pissed off at the situation. I got pissed off at the two girls just sitting there like nothing happened, and I am even more angry and the night I guess. And when my present came all the way here for me, I just really want to leave and go home I guess.
And just now, the leader texted me saying that she wants to talk to me. By the looks of it its something bad, probably I am in trouble now for leaving early that day because I got pissed off. Or maybe because when one of the manager asked me where was I, and why did I leave early I said the leader said I could leave early. But either way, I will either get kicked out of the committee now, or something like that. Oh well who the hell cares anymore. I don't need this committee, nor do I need to try to be helping in the committee if they're going to kick me off just like that. They will be the ones losing someone as great as me in their team. Moreover, if they think they can get rid of me that easily they're wrong. If she attempts to kick me out, watch, I will go to the main club adviser, i will go to to the committee adviser, and further more, I will have a petition signed and presented to the board. You cannot kick a member off the team because of no warning, no regards, nor can you just fire and yell at them like that.
I go to this school where the leaderships are messed up, the hard workers usually become the sloppy workers, and the people who deserves to earn the most are not the ones who actually do. I am in many committees in a club, and I have experiences in many different ways others don't, yet I am not the one who is selected for the leadership. Which in my opinion is pretty sad. To be honest, I hate the people on top, because to get on their good side, you need to kiss up to their asses, and do whatever they want you to do, no questions asked.
Last semester, I applied to be the leader of this one committee, and yes, I lost to someone who isn't even that highly participated in the committee. Only reason she was selected was because she was part of the main board member or the main cord of the club, and the voters were the board members. So of course, out of me, this other girl, and her, it would be her. And to make situations worst, during my interview, no one came besides the ex-leader, and the one who does the least in the board. Which makes the whole interview unfair, because no one seems to know anything during my interview.
I mean, yes I guess I somehow got over that a while later, a long while later. That is when I decided to aim for my second leadership skills interview. Which was the managers underneath the leader of the committee, they pretty much do most of the work for the leader, which leaves the leader doing nothing but still getting all the credits. Anyways, I applied to two positions, and I guess there was another one for me to fall back on in addition, so that makes it three, but sadly, I didn't get into any. The only reason I was liable I guess was because I was late to two of the meet up with the leader, well not late, but one I texted her saying I will be five minute late, and the other one was I cancelled one of the morning shift with the leader, and she was like, that is not a good enough excuse to do it but she will let be slide, but shes disappointed in me and stuff. I mean Shit. I have 20 units in my hand, why can't you just allow me to have a little moment. Others don't even work as hard as I do, heck some talks, uses their phone and shit.
Two days ago the third incident happened in which I was the only one in my shift that appeared, apparently the other girls signed in, went to the galloway, and cleaned up the booth and just sat by the stair cases for a whole two hours while I was sitting in the cold working my ass off. Shit, are they fucking dumb as hell or what is their problem? Freaking ass idiots. According to them, they asked May if they can clean up the booth, and she said yes, but after that go help out with the PCC Quad. And those two girls just took it as "leave and then come back later and help the PCC Quad". Like fuck, their Asians too, why can't they get it right. It's been the same for two month shifts now, and that one day they just think that it works like that? Holy fuck. I ended up cleaning up most of the things early because the campus police was just right there and if i clean up later on I was worried I won't be able to take it down. Then after we took the things up thats when the two girls reapperared again. Like holy crap. Yeah just come in later and take credit of the work. So I left an half an hour early because I got pissed off at the situation. I got pissed off at the two girls just sitting there like nothing happened, and I am even more angry and the night I guess. And when my present came all the way here for me, I just really want to leave and go home I guess.
And just now, the leader texted me saying that she wants to talk to me. By the looks of it its something bad, probably I am in trouble now for leaving early that day because I got pissed off. Or maybe because when one of the manager asked me where was I, and why did I leave early I said the leader said I could leave early. But either way, I will either get kicked out of the committee now, or something like that. Oh well who the hell cares anymore. I don't need this committee, nor do I need to try to be helping in the committee if they're going to kick me off just like that. They will be the ones losing someone as great as me in their team. Moreover, if they think they can get rid of me that easily they're wrong. If she attempts to kick me out, watch, I will go to the main club adviser, i will go to to the committee adviser, and further more, I will have a petition signed and presented to the board. You cannot kick a member off the team because of no warning, no regards, nor can you just fire and yell at them like that.
Saturday, February 8, 2014
Good bye floppy birds for good ? (Being taking down February 9th, 2014)
Have you heard of the newest rising star in the apple store recently? If not, look around, even in the play store, it's a pretty hot game. Made it to the number one list within days, and the game doesn't have much to it besides tapping on the screen making sure the bird flies in between the pipes. Yup, it's floppy birds. 
As of now, many of the games that's along the same branch are also on the top ten, which includes ironpants, super ball juggling, 
shuriken block, and a copy verison of floppy bird called flappy planes by some other Asian. It's scary how it's all dominating the top list chart when all they do, and the whole purpose of the game is to tap for each and every one of them. I never understood, even up to now, why all my friends are addicted to it. And heck, were in the same generations too. This game isn't just popular for teens but from kids to adult as well. Each trying their best to beat their friends score, or to test the impossible.
To be honest, my highest score was 4, so there, laugh all you want.
However, the jokes may be on you now. So, according to the Vietnamese creator of this game, Nguyen Ha Dong, he declared that he is going to take the game "floppy bird" down 22 hours from then (when he posted), although the reasons are still a bit of unsure, all we know as of now is that he said he is taking it down for personal purpose even though he earns about $50,000 from advertisements alone a day. How crazy is that?
(His tweeter is @dongatory , so if anyone wanna protest, there you have it.
So according to buzzfeed:
Nguyen Ha Dong, the indie game developer who created overnight
hit Flappy Bird, just tweeted that he is planning on taking the game down tomorrow.
I am sorry 'Flappy Bird' users, 22 hours from now, I will take 'Flappy Bird' down. I cannot take this anymore.
Although some people have accused Dong of ripping off other games, he said the decision was not because of a legal drama.
The 29-year-old from Hanoi, Vietnam created the game last May, but it surged in popularity early this year.The Verge reported it earns $50,000 a day in ad revenue.
Press people are overrating the success of my games. It is something I never want. Please give me peace.
Despite the seemingly imminent shut down, Flappy Bird seems to have recently gone under renovation.
Pipes look more polished, the background oscillates between night and day, and Flappy Bird changes from red, blue, or yellow
RT TO KEEP FLAPPY BIRD ALIVE! IN LESS THAN 24 HOURS FLAPPY BIRD WILL BE TAKEN OFF THE APP STORE!#SAVEFLAPPYBIRD
NO FLAPPY BIRD CANNOT BE DELETED!#SaveFlappyBird
Friday, February 7, 2014
Starbucks Star Dash Event ; now thru February 11
I'm pretty sure everyone here's heard of the Starbucks gold card, which many of us tends to dash for. Haha, see what I did there? Just kidding. However, from the end of January till February 11th, Tuesday, Starbucks are doing a star dash event where if you get 4 stars, you will get a bonus of 10 stars, and of you earned 7 stars, you get the bonus of 20 stars. And this is by far one of the most amazing event in comparison to other kind of event they had, like the holiday star dash where 7 stars only gets you $5 dollar and 10 stars get you $10 dollars, which doesn't really profit. I mean yeah I guess, since there's free money involved, but still, in comparison to today's event, it's way out of it's league.
So I'll probably buy myself a coffee next Monday and get myself some 20 bonus stars! Haha (:
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Lol crazy stuff. But all of you views should definitely join this team of the star dash. Just keep asking people if they want Starbucks, and if they do, tell them you'll get it for them and have them pay you back. After all you're not going to drink that much coffee. ( ´_ゝ｀) too much caffeine is totally bad for you.
Sadly, I didn't know about the star dash until a week ago. Thus, I had to literally buy a coffee everyday in order to finish it before February 11th (because I don't really drink coffee on weekends).
But as the work of my action. As of now, I have six stars. Literally just one more star to go to get 26 stars!(:
Yay green card! And no, not the visa green card. 
Did I mention I received a green badge as well?(: ehehehe
Don't believe me? Bam!
Saturday, February 1, 2014
Post Chinese New Year Hotpot
Once a year, Chinese family gathers around the dinner table, talking about new year resolution, catching up on things they thought they lost and retaining things they never had. However on this night, things are different.
Hell. I don't know what's wrong with my sister. She's like bipolar and all those stuff. I mean it's one thing to be bossy but yelling like I'm all at fault is another thing.
So during the new year dinner of hot pot. I asked for vermicelli because clearly there weren't any in the hotpot. And she was like its in the kitchen if you want it go get it. And I was like okay then, thinking never mind. Right then, she ordered, "go get it". I was like, okay, like gee thanks for trying to ask nicely, because I totally don't need to follow your order and get it. I walked over to the kitchen and gave it a quick glance and saw one last block of vermicelli left and thought oh okay here it is, and I brought it back to the dining room, poured it into the hotpot. Only to realize that everyone screamed. And my mom was like you need to put hot water in it first before placing it into the hotpot. Although everyone said "oh well just let it go" my sister came and grabbed it out of the pot saying that she soaked a bunch of blocks of vermicelli. And lead me to the kitchen saying, "if you don't know, ask. If you don't have the knowledge of it, at least you should have the common sense for this kind of things and ask." I'm like wtf? I did ask, and your the one telling me to go get it, and your the one who always tell me that I need to look for it rather than always asking you. Fuck. I can't please her every time she gets fucking irritated. Can someone teach me how to ease a bipolar in denial married with two kids two faced woman? How can she be so unthoughtful of the things she say? She tells others one thing and tells me the other. She is all nice and kind out side while treating others but leave no mercy when it comes to me. It's like, really now? Really? And for those who are blind like her, if I confront them, they will just be offended and all; what is the point? Truely. I feel like crying because if she can say those things like she meant it, I can't pretend I don't care about it.
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