"Miley Cyrus Shocks Us Once Again" (Nude Photoshoot)

"Miley Cyrus Shocks Us Once Again 

SURPRISE. I didn’t know it was possible after the first photo shoot. But she and Terry Richardson did it again, folks."

for those of you who thinks what she did at the VMA wasn't that bad, well you might want to reconsider your opinion on her...(sorry Miley fans) 

I am really mind blown myself when i first saw this too, so don't panic. But the last one when she didn't cover her nipples I was like totally mind blowning. Like wtf what she thinking? Geez.

Well now every have seen her full body nude, well maybe besides her vageegeee, but still. Its like god damn. She recently talked on a interview, saying that she is finally showing her "true self" and she is not planning to change, instead she is going to express it more and more. It's like when you think she released her nude photo was bad enough few years back, you see this now, its like that was totally nothing back then. Well tell me what you guys think of her new photo shoot.

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It's sometimes at those times that makes me wonder, at those times of argument that makes me wonder. What is happiness, and what is the secret of staying forever? Is it a long term agreement? Or perhaps a compromise of some sort? Or is it just some simple non complicated issues for say ignoring all the things that bugs you the most, the things that you wish your other half would change, those bad habbits, those things that hurt/harm your feelings? It is those moments where I end up weeping in my heart, feeling it tear a little by little, feeling the rip in my soul. It is at those moment where I ask, is it worth it to just ignore it? Is it worth the effort? Maybe it is the communication issue, and sometimes just the wrong timing, but out of everything, I definitely wish that there are those times of understanding. Something I realize my other half doesn't have. Something my previous half did have but I ignored it, something my current half doesn't have and I complain about.
      It is at these times where I wonder, was it worth it breaking off with my previous half? was it?

"Wrecking Ball" the Music Video, Miley Cyrus, and Liam (the breakage of engagement)

Have you all saw this image and maybe a few more like these? Yes, Miley Cyrus and her new music video, "Wrecking Ball" have became it hit. Maybe due to the last VMA performance Miley did that stunned practically everyone in the audience, or just maybe the nudity in the scenes.I know I have no right to say things about her or judge her, but come her, look at all her action and then you tell me that she did all these out of heartbreak. Okay, I understand, maybe a breakage of long period engagement with her beloved Liam really hurt her emotionally and perhaps physically, but that doesn't give a reason to go all out on nudity and inappropriate actions. I mean many of the fan were disappointed of her actions. I honestly loved her when she still had some dignity rather than all pole dancing around Robin Thicke, not to mention the foam finger action.

 It's like saying, yeah Miley, you look like you're definitely depress and breaking down.

Liam broke off the engagement through the convencing of his brother. He stated that he wasn't happy in the relationship, and staying in it just makes him depress. And I am not surprised, I mean look at how Miley acts now a days, I would be depress if my girlfriend fiance was like that. Shit, I would beat the crap out of her, haha just kidding. But to be honest, they really do look adorable together, no matter how she changed.

From this....

To this....

To that! 

No matter how you look at it, those two together just makes you go "daw". And even as much as I hate Miley and her actions right now, looking at these pictures really do make me smile because of how cute and compatible they look. Yes, it's a tragic that the engagement was broken off, but that doesn't mean you have to go off nude and show it to the whole world and screaming that I am going crazy now that he is gone. 

Just because a man leaves your life doesn't mean you have to wreck your own life to make things worst. And quite frankly, I don't think that is the right attitude, or the right way of trying to get Liam back, Miley. I mean I don't mean by writing a love break up song like Tayor Swift....

but then you don't have to act all Gaga or 10 times worst than Gaga and Taylor Swift Combined (no offense to them, because I actually love them very much! I'm a Swifty myself). But seriously Miley, get your track back together. Fix your image, or at least stop hurting yourself by showing your nudeness to the whole world. 

Feel free to leave comments on your thoughts and such. I'm all open.

Black Butler, the Anime Season 1 Summary

      I know its been a while since my last post, after all it was summer + the first few weeks of school. And as you know, those days are rough like wood. Anyways, now that im back, i cannot guarantee that i will stay here all the time. I may come and go depending on the time i have on my hands and the things I have planned for those days.
      I would totally go out of the way and tell you how goes my life but then things are just accumulation up, and like the usual me, forgetful and tends to not do it until the last minute. So with that in mind, things just tends to fall apart. Sigh, sophomore year is so stressful. I am two timing and stressing! So many things have came up but then I have only a short amount of time to tell you these before my time is up.So maybe i will be saving those for another time? Haha.
      Well recently I came upon this anime after Melissa recommending it to me, and boy was it nice. At first you know, like all my impression of most anime, their boring, blah blah blah. But after a while oh my god, i am in love with it so much that you have no idea. The anime is called "Black Bulter", its a two seasoned anime, which i just figured out. Season 1, its based on this young boy, who lost his loving family from the very beginning. And became vengeful of all those who were against his family and were involved in the bad murder. So he called upon a demon from hell, and held a contract with him, that once he, the demon helps the boy, Ciel with his revenge of all those that were involve, then the demon may have the right to eat Ciel's soul. So with that in mind, the demon became Ciel's butler, and from then on forward, he lived with Ciel in the mansion.
       So a little back story of the boy Ciel is that he is a Earl of the Phamtomhive, which means that his family is the queens' royal guard dog. And little did he know that the queen was against his family from the very start but didn't say anything until the end of season 1. Which I hated very very much of this film.
      And now in season 2, things became confusing; well actually let me rephrase that. Things has always been confusing in this anime, and when i searched up my question for season two, it seemed that everyone had the same question when they are watching season 2. The reason for that is by the end of season 1, Ciel though was conflicted on whether or not to kill the last victim because he was afraid of death, ended up choosing to kill the last victim, which was the queen's royal servant, aka the angel who wanted to purify the whole London by setting it all on fire. After the great battle between the two, Sabastian, the demon took Ciel off on a boat floating to a unknown place and he eats Ciel's soul. And that concluded the season.
      That was why I was surprised when i found out that there was even a season two to start with. But then its all good, that means i can last a little longer with the Ciel Sabastian love! ^____^

haha just a little diary that turned into a anime review. Well, my time's up, just stay tune for my next entry then? haha until then?

Unconciousness and Desire

      Many says unconsciousness and desire are completely two different objects, but others says their the same. If you take time to think about it, unconscious mind, uses dreams to express our inner desire. Last night I dreamed of my college good friend, let's call him J because afterall this is a blog, and we can't really be naming real people name since its all anonymous and all. So I dreamed of going to a fancy five star restruant by myself, sitting at the edge of the table eating, just a bit lonesome, with nobody around. And I felt a bit awkward and all. Then the bigger (long) table that is next to me came into focus, and on the table was this old couple, eating their appitizer salad. Then as the main course came it was J who was bringing the dish with a chef hat, representing that he probably paid the place to let him make the food for them. So in my dream, it tells me that it was J's father's birthday and he wanted to surprise him by being the chef and all. I was shocked that he would do that, and just staring at him and his chef hat. And we caught my eyes, and as our eyes met, i quickly went back to my plate of food and my book. Later on that day at the mall (the restruant was apperantly located inside the mall), he sat down on the couch next to mine, I took a look and told him to come and scoot next to me, in which he did and we started talking for a while. Then I guess I went by his house later on or something, and to find out that everyone was meeting at his house and all. (Everyone as in the people who i normally hangout with in college) And as we were sitting there at J's couch, everyone were talking to different people, and I was just glaring at random area, and later, he started chatting with me. We were having a blast or something. Then after the whole thing is over, as everyone was returning home, J was about to leave to head out, and so i asked, "where you going?" and he said oh why? I replied, because its already like 10 PM and i need a ride home. And he was like oh well what's your curfew? And i was like, I dont have one. And so he asked, if i wanted to go to a strip club with him. (this was probably from when he was checking out the 18+ magazines during our trip to fry's) I was like fine, sitting next to him I was kind of afraid of going there, because there would be a bunch of pervs, but then to think, i was also disappointed to see J becoming that type of person.
      And then the next thing you know, I woke up and that was pretty much the end of the story. I just feel like that i might have a thing for J even though i am currently with my present. I feel like I just like being tortured and being saddened. I mean right now I got most of the things i wished for you know. Present turned more patient for me, more caring and definately more understanding and all, being forgiving too, but then its just that I dont know. We always often have things we don't agree on and it's just a toll on the relationship. I just feel like sometimes he doesnt understand me and sometimes he just doesnt try to understand me. It makes me feel a but lonesome in the inside. I wish i can simply be a mind reader and read what peopel are thinking. It would maybe make my life easier. Sigh. like the saying i guess, if the boy isn't bad the girl doesn't love em'.

fuck heads. tolerance to a point that exceeds limitation

I don't normally cuss, so you know when I cuss, its something serious. When you give others a warning and expect them to not do it again, its just a stupid decision because eventually they would do it again, and what are you left with? nothing, not even the dignity you started with. Stupidity that is. Then why am I backing down, over and over again? Why don't I ever learn my lesson from the past? Strange as I thought to myself. All these years, i been living my life, strong willed, yet I constantly get tripped by the reality. How stupid can someone go for love? Just exactly how low can someone go for love. I don't know anymore, and at this point, I really don't care anymore. I want to let go, i want to spread that wing of mine and soar into the sky. How can I even do that though? In my mind, on the back of my head, it whispers, " break up" yet inside of me, with the small tint of light glowing, telling me to stay, i really don't understand what i should do anymore. How can I smile? How can i still  forgive him after all the things he did, all the unforgivable things? How come he gets to get away from all the things he does, yet I cannot get away from all the things myself? For so many countless times how i wished things would go my way, yet it doesn't. All my small expectations for him, are they really too much to ask? All i wish is somebody to care for me, to be considerate, to be there when I need someone there, and to be understanding, and yet all he wants to sexual desires and nudity. Just exactly what kind of love are we in? Do we even love each other? More like, does he even love me?
Raising this question just made me even sadder. He hides so much, and tells me so little about his life, yet I let him live in my life, its as if everything is clashing down.

stupidity i am stupidity i is.

from now on i will not be the considerate one, i will not be the direct one, he doesnt want me, why am i going through all the trouble of wanting to kiss up to someone's butt.

The most common question, "what if I am pregnant?"

It hurts a lot. It hurts a lot to realize things, and among things are the truth. I guess truth are tend to be harder than false fantasy we hoped for. Then we compare others by imagining them in the same situation but reacting to all of them better than me in my situation. Of course, what does that even mean?

I asked earlier today,actually earlier along the week, "what happens if I am pregnant?" and the answer is? "We can't handle it, I can't afford it, and both of our parents can't know about it."

Disappointed and furious, I was raged by the things he have said. What kind of boyfriend would say such thing? And then I went off to compare him with my ex and how he might have handled th situation. But oh wait, we would probably never get to that point where we have to talk about things like that till we're married.after all my current present is just another one of those men who doesn't really carry on with the consequence of his action. 

Who am I to talk though you know. So I calmed and reply, "if I am pregnant, I'll run away from home, and you will never find me,or see me again. I'll disappear in this world."

He replied, "I will find you no matter what, you can't run away from me. No matter how long it takes. You can put my words in the bank."

I just felt like, what's the point of that? If you wont take the responsibility for things like that, how do you expect me to let you find me so easily? I mean the truth is, why would you be doing that in the first place if you were to accept me and your kid? Oh wait, I forgot, you weren't gonna accept them in the first place. 

What has this world came into as? Sigh. Why did I even get to where I am?