The most common question, "what if I am pregnant?"

It hurts a lot. It hurts a lot to realize things, and among things are the truth. I guess truth are tend to be harder than false fantasy we hoped for. Then we compare others by imagining them in the same situation but reacting to all of them better than me in my situation. Of course, what does that even mean?

I asked earlier today,actually earlier along the week, "what happens if I am pregnant?" and the answer is? "We can't handle it, I can't afford it, and both of our parents can't know about it."

Disappointed and furious, I was raged by the things he have said. What kind of boyfriend would say such thing? And then I went off to compare him with my ex and how he might have handled th situation. But oh wait, we would probably never get to that point where we have to talk about things like that till we're married.after all my current present is just another one of those men who doesn't really carry on with the consequence of his action. 

Who am I to talk though you know. So I calmed and reply, "if I am pregnant, I'll run away from home, and you will never find me,or see me again. I'll disappear in this world."

He replied, "I will find you no matter what, you can't run away from me. No matter how long it takes. You can put my words in the bank."

I just felt like, what's the point of that? If you wont take the responsibility for things like that, how do you expect me to let you find me so easily? I mean the truth is, why would you be doing that in the first place if you were to accept me and your kid? Oh wait, I forgot, you weren't gonna accept them in the first place. 

What has this world came into as? Sigh. Why did I even get to where I am?