Thinking
that today would be one of those days in which where things would
just be relaxing, after all it is Friday anyways. That was all until the
facebook notification showed up with my past’s profile picture, with another
girl. I froze and struggled, after all I did like him for a longer period of
time than any of others, and he is the only one I have serious feelings for,
the one I seriously loved. The first person I learned to love, although the
wrong way to express those feelings but the one who my true heart lay on/upon.
In
the end, I decided to like it, I mean I only gave it a one minute thought, but
then I thought that was probably enough given the fact that I guess to grand
him the happiness he deserve, to show that he does deserve happiness, someone
else who is not me, someone else who would do a better job at taking care of
him then me. I really hate the fact that he takes up that much of the space in
my heart. I hate the fact that he gave up on me. I know I told myself that this
is okay, this is his moment, however I just can’t get over the fact that he is
actually moving on.
She is beautiful, and most important of all, he likes her, and she will probably 99.9% treat him better than I ever would. And for sure not break his feelings while at it. And I owe him to that. I guess I just have to wish him happiness at this point and like his profile picture. Like I said before, I owed him that.
She is beautiful, and most important of all, he likes her, and she will probably 99.9% treat him better than I ever would. And for sure not break his feelings while at it. And I owe him to that. I guess I just have to wish him happiness at this point and like his profile picture. Like I said before, I owed him that.
I
am the type of person who sinks all types of feelings deep within in me because
that is just the way I am. And normally, people wouldn’t know, after all in
this society, most people are there only about themselves, and I hate that
about the society. There aren’t that much listeners out there, plus I think due
to the nurture environment I lived in, it caused me to repress all my feelings
and thoughts inside, and I hate it. I rather get away and repress my ugly
thoughts than to face them, or just simply the thoughts that are too overwhelming,
and the worst part is because of that it hurts a lot more when I click the
unpause button to my repressed thoughts and finally face them. Because the
whole still turns while I hide some moments of me, so when I take out those
feelings that I repress, it gets hard to play catch up.
