People are right, relationship is nothing but trouble. Relationship is not just getting physical but on an emotional level too. Each have to give in to each other to satisfy another, yet some people tends to not do that, and leads it to a bigger argument. And sometimes they just tried too hard that they ended up harming themselves. To me, I always wanted a guy who would understand me, understand my needs and my wants, and don't force me into the things I dont want to do. And especially not pressure me. Someone who is there by my side when I need them the most, someone who knows when I need them and when to call me so that I can cry on a shoulder. Someone who are able to hear my cries and respond, comforting me. Being understanding and trying to cheer me up.
Watching drama all my life, I realize the more I watch the more I sometimes wish to be the main character, meeting her prince charming and finally have someone who's Mr.Right, Mr.Perfect. Having someone to be there all the time and understand you to a point where they tolerate your action. Then I realize, men these days are impossible to achieve such concept.
Why him? Why will I choose him? Out of all those guys who chased after me, out of all those guys who cared for me and loved me, i decided to pick someone who would've picked on me for life, and have never liked me. Why? Why did I pick him to crush on? He is judgmental racist, stereotype Instead i picked someone who hates seeing or even hearing the sound of sadness, the sound of tears shedding down. Who gets annoyed, paranoid, and angry over things like thsi. Why couldnt he for once comfort me? It's funny, to other girls i have seen him comforting to them countless times, but to me, he just never does. Is it because i am already his girlfriend, and theres no need for such thing? Sometimes after aguement i would wonder, not why i didnt break up but why am i dating some. one who wouldnt try to cheer me up, try to calm me down"
Why? I just wished for more understanding, is that wrong?
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