Everyone in this household went to watch mockingjay leaving
me here by myself, which is a little sad because I watched the midnight release
with AS people. Sigh, I mean yeah I guess I had a great time but still. Is it
crazy to miss someone that much? I am now unsure if its because I haven’t had a
break up in a while, or with the fact that I am more emotionally attached to
him that makes all the transition hard. Or maybe it’s the fact that I don’t
want to completely let go. I mean I tried, but I can’t. I love him too deeply
to let him go, or even imagine him being let go. I don’t want us to become
stranger again, I don’t want any of that to happen.
Reminds me of the video from wongfu, strangers again.
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for those who doesn't have time in their hands for this amazing film, feel free to just watch the trailer, but you will only want to watch the whole thing after that. But here's the trailer!
STRANGERS, AGAIN
Every relationship goes through stages. Where and how each stage develops is ultimately up to each person. While we always hope for the best, we often can’t avoid the inevitable. Josh and Marissa are at a crossroads and their future is uncertain. Josh guides us through each stage of the relationship as it formed and as he predicts it will end up as.
Every relationship goes through stages. Where and how each stage develops is ultimately up to each person. While we always hope for the best, we often can’t avoid the inevitable. Josh and Marissa are at a crossroads and their future is uncertain. Josh guides us through each stage of the relationship as it formed and as he predicts it will end up as.
In the video, wongfu talked about the different stages
relationships are in, which are pretty true.
Stage 1 Meeting – First time you saw each other
Stage 2 Chase – Getting to know each other
Stage 3 Honeymoon – In relationship where you can do anything
you want as a couple
Stage 4 Comfortable – Comfort you feel when your together
Stage 5 Tolerance – Excuses make to make distance
Stage 6 Downhill -the effort to try to make things work
Stage 7 Breaking up – Better to end it all.
However we missed a few stages here and there, or the stages
don’t exactly happen right then and there, but eventually it lead to break up.
First I thought it was ridiculous and that relationship should never be like
that, but now thinking about it my past relationships were all pretty close to
that besides the last one. Even though we fight a lot, we never made excuses to
not see each other, and its because we can’t even make excuses, especially him,
that caused this break up. Because he can’t get his priority straight.
Half of me, or probably less than half of me thinks that
moving on would be better because in the end he wouldn’t want to take me back
in to repeat his mistake even though he didn’t try it out. But the other 60-70%
of me wants everything to work. Its probably at 80% now, but that doesn’t
matter. Because my brain and my heart wants this to continue, while to him, he
thinks that its only logical to break up.
I swear I have never wrote so much about one relationship in
a spam of one week, I must be insane to go on to this level of writing when
usually I give up on writing so easily. I guess I needed something to fill up
my gap so my thinking process doesn’t go all crazy and stuff.
Why do you drive me crazy like this. Why can’t I just forget
about you like how I forgot about my ex? How long does it take for you to
figure out that I need you in my life or else I won’t be able to function? You
idiot, letting go so easily. You idiot, you idiot. Ugh.
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