Bipolar over reactant sister

My sister, no offense, but constantly reminds me of someone that I don't want to become. From her emotional stressed state, to her emotionally angry state. Like okay I understand that your the head of this house and you have the power to yell and scream but please don't be dumping your emotional state on us. Like let's be honest, why was she dumping her emotion onto us and accusing us of not appreciting her work? I mean okay, first thing first, if no one eats much of it, it obviously means that it doesn't taste that good. Why are you trying to force people to like it? I mean it's by choice. My sister called out dinner and then follow that she's like get some rice and heat it up yourself, and sure enough there were other frozen left over food on the counter that she tooked out, so I just assumed it was a free for all. Then the next thing I know she started getting pissed off because I approached the purchased left over sticky rice that is probably a week old or if not, older rather than the sticky rice she made yesterday. Claiming that I am not appreciating her food, it's like what the hell? Eat this I get in trouble then why are you putting onto the table for free for all? And second, there were no other sticky rice I saw on sight. I mean my bad for not knowing there are sticky rice in the rice maker, and taking the one week old+ sticky rice would cause you to get furious. I mean shit, give me a break. Then she starts to get ticked off, I mean does yelling at other people make yourself feel better? I sure hope that you like being selfish. Shit. Thinking that you're all nice and all, think again. Holy shit. So after that she started saying "I'm pissed off this I'm angry that and ultimately I am so mad blah blah blah" like shit calm your anger, no one is arguing with you. God damn it, made all my appetite fade away. Like for reals. And if you're reading this some other time, well let's just assume you manage to actually find my blog, then let me tell you, I threw the portion of stick rice you made that I got on my plate away, because it was just too gross to swallow after all those things you stuff down all of us. Sigh. I mean is she pmsing? I sure hope she doesn't go on fucking medapause or else I think I would probably suffer from far depress. 

Good bye spring in winter.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!(:

This will probably be one of the last post I post this year, not because I am constantly busy, or because I'm lazy or go out too often, but because my heart is broken into pieces. It all started a few days ago when my friend asked a waiter for a number for me. He's dashingly cute, tall, great face feature and just everything about him makes me smile. I guess it's just love you know. In love, guys tend to look flawless in comparison. "I'm going to find someone someday who might actually treat me well" 

"Now it's too late for you and your white horse to catch me now"

Sigh Taylor swift knows how I feel :( 

Well anyways so I got his number, we texted a bit and then he stopped texting, and from then? Never again :( you have no idea how my heart broke that day (which is the very same day) where he stopped replying. Sigh. 

I mean can someone give me a tip on how to communicate with him? I mean :( is he not interested in me because our text was boring? Or did he just give me his number just because it's hard to reject on the spot? 

Sigh I don't even know. I kinda just gave up I guess. Good bye the ten dollars my friend waged on the table :( good bye everything else. >_< I think I'm just gonna cry myself to a broken heart tonight.

I mean this is weird because this is the first time being rejected so hard :( but then again I really suck at chasing after people, I mean if you know me and look at the people I fell for and chase after, it's like did you really do that? 

Haha, yeah :(. 

Well back to this guy who I guess I just revealed his name because of the picture. 

HE PROBABLY LIED ABOUT NICE TO SEE YOU AGAIN :( GAHH I can't believe I actually wanted his number :( and I can't believe I assumed he would like me.  Sigh, why is chasing guys so hard? Only if it was easier. But then again, he's like 29 years old, a bit too old for me huh. :/ yeah it's kinda funny story too. As a kid I was always like, I'm not going to date anyone older than at most 3 years older and never someone younger, yet today I'm fine with Bryan, who is like what! Ten years older than me! ARG! Stupid jenny :( you're just like stabbing yourself in the chest for doing that. Accepting someone into your heart who doesn't even probably feel a thing for you but pity and awh. Your only 19, not like 27 or 28! Good bye Bryan. 

Well anyways :( one of my sisters friend, he's like 40 something? He is dating this girl the same age as me. Crazy stuff. Haha the ironic part is a few years back, my sister joked with him about how he can date me, when I was like less than ten years old. And he was like, "oh your sick!" And today, guess what? He's dating someone my age. Hahaha ironic I know, but he's a baby face like this guy I know from college, so he really doesn't look that old yet. Well but yeah. 

Sigh diary, this is crazy, I can't get him out of my head, Bryan. :( at least if he doesn't want me to text him, don't avoid me, just don't give me your number in the first place! Gosh. #problemwithguys

Seriously. 

short parental relationship one, [incomplete]

Parental relationship is so complicated, especially the ones who blames you on things that you never would do, well not to your parents anyways, and then expect you not to react much to it. I mean am I spoiled for saying such thing? My mom blame me for being selfish for wanting to finish my job early so i can go back to talking to my friends, but just to be honest, i did that to help out my mom so she would have the carry less. I never thought of hurrying myself, because i mean if i wanted to hurry, then i would have just ran up and down. but then again i am lazy as well.