At first, I thought, "oh, maybe I can say it to my 'present'" (for those who don't know, present is another why I address my current boyfriend, because naming is too unnecessary for situations like this) Only to realize that I have no one to say it to. Present and I haven't spoken for a while; I am tired of his attitude, his ungratefulness, his self blame, and all the other things. Sometimes it seems as if we were merely compatible while other times it seems like we are the happiest couple there is on the street. The relationship I have with him is just so complicated. He doesn't see the things I see, and when I try to tell him the things I see, he just thinks I'm being immature and don't see the whole picture when in fact I am the one seeing everything from head to toe. It's just fustrating to see that, to see the things he doesn't see. And when I tell him, go ask other people and they would agree with me, he would be like, "am I other people? They are them and I am me. You can't compare the two of us." And that just fustrated me even more, sometimes to the point of breakage. He claims that I will never find a guy who would do all the things he does for me, which I know is not true, because I knew Past would've done anything in his power to get me what I want back then, and even now.
Silly me, thinking that everything would've worked out, thinking that we had a chance, taking my happiness with me to the grave. I don't know what to do anymore. And this isn't even my first time hitting this problem. Our relationship have definitely hit downhill for a while, I guess I am just too stubborn in routine to see this. What should I do ? Anyone
