June 12 2014

So its been a while since I last wrote an entry. Yeah, a lot of things has been happening since the last time I actually sat down and wrote a heart to heart conversation with people I don't even know, aka my readers. Haha I don't even know who reads this anymore, but then anyways it doesn't matter anymore, i am just in the habit of writing them even though there may no even be audiences out there reading this messages.
Truth be told, I really hate how the society treats me sometimes. sometimes although I feel lucky to be where I am right now, sitting in an student government office, working hard towards my goal in life, even though its still undecided right now. Working hard to try to earn approval of the family, and working hard to make sure I get an A in my summer classes. Sometimes I wish I can take a break off of what I am doing and finally relax, but the sometimes too much of nothingness bores me to death, god does anyone else feel this? It's like if I have too long of a break then I just feel like s slump of blob that needs to go out and do something productive like volunteering or hanging out with my friends. But when I do all that too much, then  I wish I could have break. It's like humans always want what we cannot have, some stupid reverse twisted sick psychology concept that we all tend to have. Wishing for what we have and unappreciated of what we do have, and when we lose what we have, we ultimately wish for it back because apparently we didn't know better until after its gone.
So many times, so many lessons taught me this, however, like everyone else I tend to forget about it in flash of a second anyways. It's weird to think that way , sometimes I feel like I am over thinking it but then other times I feel like, wow for me to think of something so mature, god so proud of myself.

So moving onwards to today, a day after establishing the rules of not touching other people's property and office norms, my office co-worker fucking takes my chair, stole it because his is broken. Shit, let hell break lose, if he think he can fucking take my chair and everything is going to be okay, he is fucking wrong. I wish he can get all the things he deserve coming/going his way. Shit. Its only the second day that we are all working i this student government office, and he is already here taking my chair and everything? Imagine working together for a full year? What the hell is going to happen then?